If you were a wink, I'd be a nod...

Go see Juno. Right now. Stop reading and see this movie. I fell in love with it. Glitter, Armenian, and I went. It was the right songs, the right emotions, the right lines, the timing was impeccable. Nothing could be better about it. It made me like Jennifer Garner which I didn't think was possible. I liked Ellen Page in Hard Candy and she made me love her again her even though it took me time to adjust to her small size. Michael Cera..who doesn't love him? He is the kind of guy all girls love. A Jake Ryan type if you will. Very rare. So go see this movie because with all the crap out there, when a movie this touching and real comes along, you have to support it so they make more. (There was a preview for a movie with Matthew 'shortarms' Mcconaughey and kate 'cheating in a marriage is ok' hudson and who the hell wants to see that garbage??)

Side note. Woke up and worked out this morning. Wow. Good time on the elliptical, my favorite machine. I want to lose some weight and tone up and surprise the Israeli. 53 more days without his smile, arms around me, not being able to kiss his back when we sleep. *le sigh* Could I miss him any more then I do? Don't think so but even for a movie like this, Glitter is THE perfect movie buddy. I am excited for the next few days.

Oh my god. How could I forgot. To Promote 27 Dresses they had a girl very similar looking to Katherine Heigel wearing this dress!! She was just standing there is the same pose while mostly creepy guys sat and stared. She freaked me out because she was so still from the back she looked like a mannequin and then all of a sudden moved bit and I jumped, grabbing onto Glitter. I wonder if they are doing this everywhere and for how long. We were at a 9:55 show and she was there so damn, long day!! Let me know if anyone else sees this....

The weather outside is frightful but I'm so delightful ;)

What a week this has been. First off, my work started blocking all blog sites. You can be on a site and the next day *boom* blocked. I used to be able to get AIM, any blog, any site. Then AIM was gone which I understood and then perez hilton. Now after 3 months they have blocked all my favorite blogs!! They even blocked gmail! Thank god I can at least listen to my Ipod while I work and ignore the short and extremely loud 'team leader' that sits across from me. Honestly, the man is sooo loud and talks from the moment he gets in to the moment he leaves. Today we learned this interesting tidbit: "Man, I'm trying to find shoes but it's so hard. I'm too small for the men's shoes and too big for the kids. Why can't they make a size 7". Everyone around me burst out laughing, trying to picture this guy in the kids shoe section trying on spiderman gym shoes or something, and he had no idea since his back is to us.

Glitter is home and that has been amazing (target and bakers square and trashy reality tv). Tonight we are going to do some shopping and tomorrow some more shopping. It keeps my mind off the Israeli being gone. I called him today and we talked while he was going back to his town from Tel Aviv. When I hear his voice sometimes I don't know what to say becaue I just miss him being here and like to know he's there. I know we don't have to talk everyday, there are generally no big updates and the calls can get expensive if we talk everyday for 2 months but I don't care. I think I'll send him some pictures soon of me and Bella. (Thanks Valley Girl for the comment!). Bella has been the biggest help though. All week keeping me warm at night and waking me up with face stares and cuddles. Definitely getting her something new tonight. Maybe a sweater or boots? It's cold here!!!

I need to finish my Christmas shopping for the family. Dad's grandparents get wine.com subscription for a year. 2 bottles of wine a month for a year from all over the world. Someone please feel free to get me that! Need a few things for my little cousin and Mom's mom. She gets the usual gift card but this year I am adding scratch lotto which she loves. Dad gets a Torchwood DVD set which he wants and Bro and Bro's Wifey get gift cards. Bella will be giving her cousin Jeebus and Aunt Fiona something from Petsmart becuase she's a sweetheart like that.

I can't wait till after X-mas to shop and fix up the apartment. The Isreali loves this place and has made it pretty clear we are not moving. Since he never asks for anything, I can stay here for him. It's a cute place in a great neighborhood but small. For a man that has so many designer jeans, shirts, shoes etc I don't know how he doesn't mind the size but ok. I am getting a new dining room table, a new side table/chest, big floor rug, new bedsheets and some random accessories. When it's all done I will post pics. When he comes back, it's going to be a whole new place. The bedroom it basically done and has been for a while. I love my one red wall (ala Big in Sex and the City). We have low lighting in there and it's a very relaxing room to sleep and do other things....

Oh! Glitter just called and is ready to go. I think later tonight after a hot shower I am going to do a mememe/survey thing.

Saturday night's all right for....blogging?

Saturday night. Snowing like crazy. Nothing on tv. Husband out of the country. What's a girl to do? Well, I will be reading Training for Toy Dog magazine but that's because I like to look at the dogs and see which ones look like Bella. I played with her in the show a bit and she had a great time.

I have Lovers of The Arctic Circle recorded and that is a good watch. Actually, it is an excellent film from 1998 that made me cry. The characters, the filming, and the fact that I love a good subtitled movie. Two lovers who met at the age of 8 and had their lives entwined along with the message of coincidences and the idea of circles. It is simply a hauntingly beautiful film I ran across late one night on IFC. The actor who plays the male lead was apparently also in Bad Education which I have wanted to watch, so maybe I will put it in my blockbuster que. That's right, I am into Blockbuster and not Netflix. The thing is, it really is convenient to go to the store and exchange movies. I can have 3 movie from the mailer that I return in the store for 3 new movies and they will still send me 3 in the mail, I can have 6 movies at once! Which...now seems a little excessive but the Israeli and I love watching movies.

This was a HARD week without the Israeli. Thank god Glitter have her best friend esp on and even though she in the middles of law school finals took a few hours to listen to me bawl my eyes out. It is times like that that you know you your real friends are. Now her I have never questioned but my friends who actually live by me, I was severely disappointed in. Let me give you some back story on the girls I spent high school with. A Catholic high school with uniforms and only 180 girls from freshmen to senior year. Here are the Plaid Skirts:

Irish-passive aggressive girl who spends a huge amount of time with her family because she can't say not. preppy and very cute but dates the same idiot for the last 5 years or so. doesn't live with him, has no plans to, and break up more then they are together.

Audrina 2.0-Basically acts just like Audrina from the Hills. good heart, pretty, ditzy, needs to learns lesson for herself, likes douchebags.

Big L-variation of her actual nickname. big bitch. fun to hang out but can turn on you in 2 seconds. good for adventures but not always reliable. smart and focused. dating a girl but can't decide if she is even bi. love/hate friendship. currently love.

Spacey-the dumbest smart girl you ever met. ivy league educated. no common sense. lesbian dating the most annoying ugly girl ever. working drunk. once said "target, isn't that where you buy gifts for poor people". apparently a selective toilet flusher. used to be my absolute best friend in the world, we ever had a 3 way together.

M2-friend by association. nice. neither here nor there for me. fucking Irish's friend and also has the most adorable long distance bf. yeah.

Xmeth-over achiever. ivy league schools. ex meth head. friends with the clintons. dates a psych resident who keeps her on pills.

So this is a sample of the girls I went to school with and am "friends" with. I am still fairly close with 2.0 but the others, I am not putting any effort into anymore. They complain about all of us not hanging out but they make no effort. They bitch about the same men for years. Now we all can have that ex that never quite stays an ex but go have some interesting fucks or flings or something!! You would think that since they all knew the Israeli was leaving they would call me to see how I was doing, but not once call. When I talked to Irish tonight she completely glossed over that topic. I don't think they need to act like it is a big deal to them but come on, one of your " best friends" husband is going away for 2 months and you can't even say "oh that sucks, I'm sorry" or something? Glitter was there like a champ and Flower called me the day he left, invited me over, and has called me everyday. I spent last night there for shabbat dinner and they made sure I was good. I have known the Plaid Skirts for almost 10 years and Flower for 2 and that is how they act. IT definitely hurts but I remember now why I stopped speaking to them and being close for a few years. Because they would rather be passive aggressive and fake then just be honest with each other. Spacey and Irish were roommates and that was one hot mess that they were both so pass/ass about that they sent complaints through friends and moved out without talking face to face. Anyways....

An empty bed and a sad heart is what I am working with but I am trying to stay positive. Working out on Monday with Ukraine. She is a work friend and this will be out first out of work excursion so let's hope it goes well. Glitter is here Tuesday and on Wednesday I am having a purse party. This should be very interesting. Also some Gramma time this week. I have the most adorable Italian gramma (say it without the 'd'). We had a 3 hour talk sesh tonight because she is awesome like that.

So here I am at 1:31 am with my blanket from the Israeli, Bella wrapped in it at my feet, and there is a very appropriate Dashboard Confessional song playing.

You'll be leaving for the winter, but I won't see that it's true
It's the right thing for you, but it's tough to be moved
With the holiday spirit, when to tell you the truth
I had big plans for Christmas, and high hopes for you.

I want you here by my side!
Cold nights
and fires
and white wine
And dreams of holidays have come, but I'll wait for spring to bring you to me
Only gift that I need.

I'll be living off your phone calls and your letters and your post cards
Every single word is like a secret wish come true
Who cares if were apart for the big days
It's the small ones that made me fall in love with you (fall in love with you).

'The joy in life is not in hearing the words "I love you," but in being lucky enough to say them.'

The Israeli left yesterday morning for Israel. 2 months. 70 days. the longest we've ever been apart was 2 weeks, talking at least 3-4 times a day. Since he hasn't been home in 2.5 years, it's definitely understandable the amount of time he's taking. Plus he is meeting his 2 best friends in Thailand for 2 weeks. One friend is coming from China and the other from Vienna. Lucky boys. If my best friend Glitter, who lives in Cali, and I could meet anywhere in the world for 3 weeks you bet your ass I would be excited, even if it was in the middle of nowhere cornfields. I used to think we were like Melissa and Coral (which we are) but we are also like Christina and Cameron from The Sweetest Thing. Straightforward, sassy, trendy but classic, always causing trouble somewhere and laughing the whole time.

Glitter and I have been best friends since we were 7 years old in plaid jumpers and dominating the AYSO soccer league. She was the coolest kid I knew and introduced me to Cosmo and Seventeen when we should have still been reading Highlights! She was the 3rd grader reading Gone with the Wind in the library with me and probably having no idea what was going on but still being badass to finish it and do an intelligent book report while other kids were reading Boxcar children (which we still loved). From our high school escapades with public school boys *gasp* to other prep school boys and even a marine, we remained like sisters. She is beautiful, amazing, intelligent, funny, straight forward, sincere, and coming home in one week! She is engaged to the Armenian who adores her, as he should. She is a 2nd year law school student kicking ass and always having the most unique Halloween costumes. This is the 2nd New Year's Eve she will have been home in a long time and I am so grateful. The Israeli leaving is probably the most un-fun thing that has happened to me this year (besides the restraining order against my stalker ex bf but thats another story) and Glitter coming is definitely the most fun thing, even better then a 3 week FL vacation or my first trip to Vegas!


Back to the Israeli leaving. I have his cell phone with me in case anyone calls for his job, etc. He will get a phone while he is over there to all from so for now I get to be constantly asked why I have 2 phones. Now being alone for a determined amount of time isn't too bad. His ticket back is booked and I can do a countdown on my new chihuahua calendar I got for $1 at the Target dollar spot. So thats a plus. If I don't feel like cleaning for a night, no one will notice but me...and the dog but she's half the mess so she won't tell. I can always be the one to choose what to eat or watch to watch on tv. I never have to share the blanket and I can pee with the bathroom door open. All these are good things and for a while I will definitely joy enjoy the perks of pseudo singledom. After about 2-3 weeks, the missing him begins to get full force. Who is going to bring me home dinner when I am watching my ANTM marathons? I start to miss watching Seinfeld non stop for hours every day and even sharing the blanket starts to bring back fond memories of tugging and ending up with our legs entwined, the dog between us. Sleeping alone and waking up when Bella barks at invisible strangers isn't as cute when there is no one to grab on to and feel safe with (in my top notch neighborhood on a street between 2 synagogues.) I actually will miss bringing him his McDonald's Sweet Tea which they just introduced in the north after he got obsessed with it during his southern travels. 70 days. Now only 69. My countdown continues and I can't wait for the next time I hear his voice and the paperclip in gmail telling me I have an attachment which means pics of his homeland, his friends, and his beautiful smile.