Happy New Year.

No. The blues are because you're getting fat and maybe it's been raining too long, you're just sad that's all

This is either going to be a lazy sunday for me or a super productive one. I haven't decided yet. I need to wash all my clothes, put new sheets on the bed, grocery shop, organize paperwork, dust, blah blah blah. I want to watch crappy sunday tv, cuddle with bella, and Chinese take out. Actually, I want to go shopping but it's freezing outside so unless I convince myself to go and then do groceries after, who knows. I have practically nothing in my fridge so I am sure like 4 hours from now I will go.

I watched Superbad with Lior last night. We texted some girl who was hitting on him at his job that day. H heeds to get laid so even though he didn't find her attractive, I told him he could just turn her around and only see her back. He was super honest with her about a one night thing and she was down with that soo...maybe tonight he will be getting laid. I haven't smoked in a year so that was kind of relaxing. I generally don't care to but on the other hand am not opposed.

The Isreali and I got into a bit of a fight. Apparently saying "um hi" means I have attitude. He told me "you have an attitude. You can call me tomorrow" and hung out and when I called back, didn't answer. Nice. I understand he had surgery and is cranky but he has never done that and would be soooo pissed if I did that. I hate how fights long distance get so blown out of proportion and even the make up will be lackluster. *sigh* I wish he was home. He is my 'missing piece'. His prescence gives me motivation, security, he is fun and laughs and warmth and when I met him, somehting insude me changed. I grew up, learned more compassion, thoughtfulness, how to love and be a better friend. I also learned he is the best kisser and my favorite place in the world is anywhere with him and Bella between us.


Did I mention I lost my hair dryer? I hate when I put something in a place I am sure I'll remember and then later have absolutely no idea. Still in search of it after 4 days. I keep picturing Bella trying to drag it and hide it somewhere.

New winter jacket from Michael Kors. Keeps me warm so I'm happy.

Bella will be attending Doggie Day care this week. A small dog only facility open 7am to 7pm. Owner seems really kind and they offer a free day to see how the dog likes it. Bella needs to be more social with dogs and a lot of chihuahuas go, so this should be good for her while the Israeli is gone and I work all day. It's only $20 a day and a brand new facility so I am hopeful.

Having Bella to cuddle and talk to and play with and just come home to really helps being by myself. Wit the Israeli gone, it's lonely to come home to an empty house but Bella waiting for me with hugs and kisses and such excitement makes me forget that.

So I am going to finish watching 'Breakfast at Tiffany's' and wonder where the hell Glitter is.

If you were a wink, I'd be a nod...

Go see Juno. Right now. Stop reading and see this movie. I fell in love with it. Glitter, Armenian, and I went. It was the right songs, the right emotions, the right lines, the timing was impeccable. Nothing could be better about it. It made me like Jennifer Garner which I didn't think was possible. I liked Ellen Page in Hard Candy and she made me love her again her even though it took me time to adjust to her small size. Michael Cera..who doesn't love him? He is the kind of guy all girls love. A Jake Ryan type if you will. Very rare. So go see this movie because with all the crap out there, when a movie this touching and real comes along, you have to support it so they make more. (There was a preview for a movie with Matthew 'shortarms' Mcconaughey and kate 'cheating in a marriage is ok' hudson and who the hell wants to see that garbage??)

Side note. Woke up and worked out this morning. Wow. Good time on the elliptical, my favorite machine. I want to lose some weight and tone up and surprise the Israeli. 53 more days without his smile, arms around me, not being able to kiss his back when we sleep. *le sigh* Could I miss him any more then I do? Don't think so but even for a movie like this, Glitter is THE perfect movie buddy. I am excited for the next few days.

Oh my god. How could I forgot. To Promote 27 Dresses they had a girl very similar looking to Katherine Heigel wearing this dress!! She was just standing there is the same pose while mostly creepy guys sat and stared. She freaked me out because she was so still from the back she looked like a mannequin and then all of a sudden moved bit and I jumped, grabbing onto Glitter. I wonder if they are doing this everywhere and for how long. We were at a 9:55 show and she was there so damn, long day!! Let me know if anyone else sees this....

Joy to the world...and holidays being over!

First, I am proud of myself for going to the gym today. My brother gave me new New Balance pants, top, and shoes, so I was ready to go. I know the whole thing about if you want to work out, you just will no matter what, but I need cute clothes. I now have my cute sky blue sports tank top and cute black workout pants and the breast cancer awareness shoes (although fyi: the #1 killer of women and men in america is heart disease). I did a 45 minute workout after work my mom and came home to hang out and wait for Glitter.

The Weekend
Wake up at 5.
Get to Airport at 6:00.
7:45 flight cancelled.
Finally get on 9:40 flight that leaves around 10:30.
Get to the grandparents around 1:30.
Awful bbq. Amazing Family.
Last minute gifts and bed by 9.
Wake up 10:30.
Bro and Wifey come.
Gifts. (yay $400 to Ikea, body scrubs, and New Balance gear)
Airport at 4:30.
$35 first class upgrade.
Man across the aisle puking the whole time.
Left plane. Puked myself.
Home at 12:30 in -18 degree weather.

X-Mas Eve Day
Akward.
Mom is the best.
Gramma too.
Aunts are insane.
Thank god its over.
Next holidya is Easter which I am already opting out of.

Baby It's Cold Outside...

Tonight I will come home and let you know about my weekend and holidays. Should I start with the man with the stomach flu on my plane ride home? The childish emails from my estranged "father"? The 70lb labrador named Jeebus? I don't know but it will be writing with a glass of wine, my favorite blanket, and my favorite embarassing songs playing. Right now I will rush to get dressed and do Christmas day dinner with my Italian side of the family. Yesterday involved no alcohol so I am desperately hoping for some wine at this dinner.

(Side note: Right now I am missing the Israeli. He had some surgery done and I wish I could be there with him but I know he is okay because he is with his mom. Maybe it's listening to "Baby, it's cold outside" but the wintertime is lonesome without him to spend it with and so are family dinners...)

The weather outside is frightful but I'm so delightful ;)

What a week this has been. First off, my work started blocking all blog sites. You can be on a site and the next day *boom* blocked. I used to be able to get AIM, any blog, any site. Then AIM was gone which I understood and then perez hilton. Now after 3 months they have blocked all my favorite blogs!! They even blocked gmail! Thank god I can at least listen to my Ipod while I work and ignore the short and extremely loud 'team leader' that sits across from me. Honestly, the man is sooo loud and talks from the moment he gets in to the moment he leaves. Today we learned this interesting tidbit: "Man, I'm trying to find shoes but it's so hard. I'm too small for the men's shoes and too big for the kids. Why can't they make a size 7". Everyone around me burst out laughing, trying to picture this guy in the kids shoe section trying on spiderman gym shoes or something, and he had no idea since his back is to us.

Glitter is home and that has been amazing (target and bakers square and trashy reality tv). Tonight we are going to do some shopping and tomorrow some more shopping. It keeps my mind off the Israeli being gone. I called him today and we talked while he was going back to his town from Tel Aviv. When I hear his voice sometimes I don't know what to say becaue I just miss him being here and like to know he's there. I know we don't have to talk everyday, there are generally no big updates and the calls can get expensive if we talk everyday for 2 months but I don't care. I think I'll send him some pictures soon of me and Bella. (Thanks Valley Girl for the comment!). Bella has been the biggest help though. All week keeping me warm at night and waking me up with face stares and cuddles. Definitely getting her something new tonight. Maybe a sweater or boots? It's cold here!!!

I need to finish my Christmas shopping for the family. Dad's grandparents get wine.com subscription for a year. 2 bottles of wine a month for a year from all over the world. Someone please feel free to get me that! Need a few things for my little cousin and Mom's mom. She gets the usual gift card but this year I am adding scratch lotto which she loves. Dad gets a Torchwood DVD set which he wants and Bro and Bro's Wifey get gift cards. Bella will be giving her cousin Jeebus and Aunt Fiona something from Petsmart becuase she's a sweetheart like that.

I can't wait till after X-mas to shop and fix up the apartment. The Isreali loves this place and has made it pretty clear we are not moving. Since he never asks for anything, I can stay here for him. It's a cute place in a great neighborhood but small. For a man that has so many designer jeans, shirts, shoes etc I don't know how he doesn't mind the size but ok. I am getting a new dining room table, a new side table/chest, big floor rug, new bedsheets and some random accessories. When it's all done I will post pics. When he comes back, it's going to be a whole new place. The bedroom it basically done and has been for a while. I love my one red wall (ala Big in Sex and the City). We have low lighting in there and it's a very relaxing room to sleep and do other things....

Oh! Glitter just called and is ready to go. I think later tonight after a hot shower I am going to do a mememe/survey thing.

Saturday night's all right for....blogging?

Saturday night. Snowing like crazy. Nothing on tv. Husband out of the country. What's a girl to do? Well, I will be reading Training for Toy Dog magazine but that's because I like to look at the dogs and see which ones look like Bella. I played with her in the show a bit and she had a great time.

I have Lovers of The Arctic Circle recorded and that is a good watch. Actually, it is an excellent film from 1998 that made me cry. The characters, the filming, and the fact that I love a good subtitled movie. Two lovers who met at the age of 8 and had their lives entwined along with the message of coincidences and the idea of circles. It is simply a hauntingly beautiful film I ran across late one night on IFC. The actor who plays the male lead was apparently also in Bad Education which I have wanted to watch, so maybe I will put it in my blockbuster que. That's right, I am into Blockbuster and not Netflix. The thing is, it really is convenient to go to the store and exchange movies. I can have 3 movie from the mailer that I return in the store for 3 new movies and they will still send me 3 in the mail, I can have 6 movies at once! Which...now seems a little excessive but the Israeli and I love watching movies.

This was a HARD week without the Israeli. Thank god Glitter have her best friend esp on and even though she in the middles of law school finals took a few hours to listen to me bawl my eyes out. It is times like that that you know you your real friends are. Now her I have never questioned but my friends who actually live by me, I was severely disappointed in. Let me give you some back story on the girls I spent high school with. A Catholic high school with uniforms and only 180 girls from freshmen to senior year. Here are the Plaid Skirts:

Irish-passive aggressive girl who spends a huge amount of time with her family because she can't say not. preppy and very cute but dates the same idiot for the last 5 years or so. doesn't live with him, has no plans to, and break up more then they are together.

Audrina 2.0-Basically acts just like Audrina from the Hills. good heart, pretty, ditzy, needs to learns lesson for herself, likes douchebags.

Big L-variation of her actual nickname. big bitch. fun to hang out but can turn on you in 2 seconds. good for adventures but not always reliable. smart and focused. dating a girl but can't decide if she is even bi. love/hate friendship. currently love.

Spacey-the dumbest smart girl you ever met. ivy league educated. no common sense. lesbian dating the most annoying ugly girl ever. working drunk. once said "target, isn't that where you buy gifts for poor people". apparently a selective toilet flusher. used to be my absolute best friend in the world, we ever had a 3 way together.

M2-friend by association. nice. neither here nor there for me. fucking Irish's friend and also has the most adorable long distance bf. yeah.

Xmeth-over achiever. ivy league schools. ex meth head. friends with the clintons. dates a psych resident who keeps her on pills.

So this is a sample of the girls I went to school with and am "friends" with. I am still fairly close with 2.0 but the others, I am not putting any effort into anymore. They complain about all of us not hanging out but they make no effort. They bitch about the same men for years. Now we all can have that ex that never quite stays an ex but go have some interesting fucks or flings or something!! You would think that since they all knew the Israeli was leaving they would call me to see how I was doing, but not once call. When I talked to Irish tonight she completely glossed over that topic. I don't think they need to act like it is a big deal to them but come on, one of your " best friends" husband is going away for 2 months and you can't even say "oh that sucks, I'm sorry" or something? Glitter was there like a champ and Flower called me the day he left, invited me over, and has called me everyday. I spent last night there for shabbat dinner and they made sure I was good. I have known the Plaid Skirts for almost 10 years and Flower for 2 and that is how they act. IT definitely hurts but I remember now why I stopped speaking to them and being close for a few years. Because they would rather be passive aggressive and fake then just be honest with each other. Spacey and Irish were roommates and that was one hot mess that they were both so pass/ass about that they sent complaints through friends and moved out without talking face to face. Anyways....

An empty bed and a sad heart is what I am working with but I am trying to stay positive. Working out on Monday with Ukraine. She is a work friend and this will be out first out of work excursion so let's hope it goes well. Glitter is here Tuesday and on Wednesday I am having a purse party. This should be very interesting. Also some Gramma time this week. I have the most adorable Italian gramma (say it without the 'd'). We had a 3 hour talk sesh tonight because she is awesome like that.

So here I am at 1:31 am with my blanket from the Israeli, Bella wrapped in it at my feet, and there is a very appropriate Dashboard Confessional song playing.

You'll be leaving for the winter, but I won't see that it's true
It's the right thing for you, but it's tough to be moved
With the holiday spirit, when to tell you the truth
I had big plans for Christmas, and high hopes for you.

I want you here by my side!
Cold nights
and fires
and white wine
And dreams of holidays have come, but I'll wait for spring to bring you to me
Only gift that I need.

I'll be living off your phone calls and your letters and your post cards
Every single word is like a secret wish come true
Who cares if were apart for the big days
It's the small ones that made me fall in love with you (fall in love with you).