I'm a new soul I came to this strange world hoping I could learn a bit about how to give and take.

"don't worry it will be okay"

i am scared. i am just scared. i mean, i have absolutely no idea what will happen. it was 70 days away from each other. separate lives. many lies.

my bed was cold and now is my heart. i want to just be held by him. i want to lay there and just wish all the the rest of the world away. running away from reality is not the answer. problems will be there and being held will make me confused. i know its the end and perhaps thats why it is so sad. i mean, i can't hate him. i want to but until i lay my eyes on him and he is here, i won't know how i really feel. i know i am worthy of more then being cheated on. lied to.

9 days.

I feel like Monty in 25th hour.

Should the Israeli coming home make me feel like I am going to prison?

I'll forgive you for what you've done
If you say that I'm the one
I've had other options too
But all I want is you

It's not my style to lay it on the line
But you don't leave me with a choice this time
Why weren't you true
You know I, I trusted you
But you don't leave me with a choice this time
Why weren't you true
You know I, I trusted you

When you were just friends
At least that's what you said
Now I know better
(gavin degraw-just friends)

My Way-Frank Sinatra

Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried.
Ive had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!